Zephyrous

2008-06-08T17:12:00.000+08:00

2008-04-21T21:43:00.002+08:00

haha. wrote this NEW C program for my computing exam paper...i hope it's not totally wrong...

人是奇怪的。

2008-04-21T01:14:00.002+08:00

haha. EXAM.

2 more papers to go! FE1008 in less than 8 hrs time...and DIGI is on next monday.

WOOTS. i gonna go ice skate after these crapS.

registered for special term. so gonna start sch again on 5.5.08. it's on understanding chinese movies...culture, impact, etc.... hope it will be fun...

2008-01-28T16:03:00.000+08:00

enjoying german and japanese classes....digital lifestyle is a rather interesting course too...haha why am i liking my electives more than my core modules? haha...

certain ntu people can be very IRRITAING.

There is a point at which even justice does injury.

2008-01-14T11:22:00.000+08:00

21 hours per week. 2 new languages to learn. haha what an exciting school term.

results for last semester were quite bad. i gonna study harder for now.

2007-11-19T00:56:00.001+08:00

i need new glasses. to see things that i'd never been able to.

2007-11-11T19:17:00.000+08:00

A says, "We'll be best friends from now on."

Me says, "WHY?"

i was surprised by my "WHY", and even more surprised by the reason behind "best friends".

"Best friends". Used most inappropriately by to-be adults.

I miss having CCA as part of my life. The people who make up the "interest" group. Yes, it's "interest" group, not "purpose" group.

11/11/07. exactly four more years to 11/11/11. The number ONEs that many people have been trying to pursue.

2007-11-02T22:24:00.001+08:00

i want that adidas windbreaker! anw michelle bought herself a nike windbreaker...plus two sets of nike wristbands...lol nike fan...we bought this white reebok jacket for minli too...birthday present...hahaha we love sports shop...

damn. those guys were discussing answers during maths TEST. openly. and this counts towards cgpa.

i miss S04.

2007-10-27T20:10:00.000+08:00

lifeless body...and as usual...searching for a soul.

EOY. 14-22Nov.

2007-10-17T00:27:00.000+08:00

hah. the last entry was more than a mth ago. i didnt mean to abandon this, but sometimes not being able to express myself properly IS A PAIN, which is probably why i hadnt touched this space for so long.

anw, i am kinda leading a very undisciplined life now. skipped countless lects until i dunno what's happening. and finals are coming. hah. i hope i dont have to repeat any damn modules, especially life sciences. oh great. physics is getting ever confusing. maths is ???. materials science is LIKE CHEMISTRY!!. LAB is HELL. Econs is I DONT CARE.

377A. a total joke.

2007-09-14T01:09:00.000+08:00

Drifting
by Kit McCallum

I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.

I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.

You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.

I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.

For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.

Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?

It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.

I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.

It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.

Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?

Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?

Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?

Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.

I am not driven by anything. Therefore, no matter how good I am, it's just not going to make ANY difference.

Dont come near me. If not you will end up like me.

2007-08-28T12:27:00.000+08:00

my ah lun rocks the world. HAHAHA!!!

2007-08-27T10:57:00.000+08:00

can i not go to school?

2007-08-23T13:09:00.000+08:00

"Follow the notes upon a journey,
At first sight makes one’s destiny,
When the voyage comes to an end,
return lies within hasty keys" - SECRET(directed by Jay Chou)

Am having difficulty trying to maintain a conversation with someone. Getting more anti-social these days. Haiz...meeting my buddies later for dinner. I don't even know what to say to them. Wonder what's happening to me...Maybe I am just tired.

2007-08-21T00:58:00.000+08:00

where's ur passion?

where's ur drive?

where are you?

i think my mum's right.

2007-08-14T01:27:00.001+08:00

some things that i wanna do these few years:

...lead a laid-back uni life
...spend more time with my family
...help more people
...read more good books
...read more good blogs
...watch more good shows
...listen to good music
...enjoy ntu's scenery
...drink more starbucks coffee
...kick disgusting people out of my life as though they were soccer balls :X

I think i like the word "good". Somewhat subtle i guess...???

school life's been ALL RIGHT. haha dined with minli today and visited the NANYANG supermarket...the shop sells NTU stickers!!!! HAHAHA...i feel like buying the NTU mug...it's quite nice-looking...was supposed to be sleeping in my hall today...but i forgot to bring my shoes for lab lessons tmr (was running around the school in sandals) ...so had to come home to sleep instead...hahaa...and here i am blogging...........

2007-07-19T13:25:00.000+08:00

haha my maple chars...so ke ai...=X

2007-07-12T16:44:00.000+08:00

Many things are FOC. I know you like them a lot. And I know you want me as ur friend cos I am FOC too. Only that u are more willing to throw me away. The other FOC things are more precious. YEAH.

2007-06-30T00:07:00.000+08:00

not once, not twice, but countless times of suffocation. i feel like giving up now, u irritating gal.

2007-06-28T09:11:00.000+08:00

i wanna go back to school...the brain's getting rusty after some mundane accounting work....

my friend doesn't understand this statement: ... This is beautiful, but I dont like it ... Does anyone think that this is contradicting???

The truth is not meant to be understood.

2007-06-26T01:48:00.000+08:00

hahaha. hahaha. WHY DO U SUCK SO MUCH?

2007-06-18T04:42:00.000+08:00

i made my very first ba4 zang3(dumpling) today!!! haha!! the shape is super weird though...it should have ended up like a pyramid...but mine looked like some sort of ball instead...lol...i didnt use enough rice...

some outdated update...k-boxing with the juniors was FUN!!! haha then jianhao knows all the really nice mayday songs...esp the hokkien ones...the many mayday songs that we sang are my all-time favs....anw jingjing can sing super well...haha she should have gone for css...

2007-06-07T09:28:00.000+08:00

Life is an artwork without an eraser. - anonymous

2007-06-06T14:47:00.000+08:00

Xy, your true color is Green! You're green, the color of growth and vigor. Good-hearted and giving, you have a knack for finding and bringing out the best in people. Green is the most down-to-earth color in the spectrum — reliable and trustworthy. People know they can count on you to be around in times of need, since your concern for people is genuine and sincere. You take pride in being a good friend. For you, success is measured in terms of personal achievement and growth, not by status or position. Rare as emeralds, greens are wonderful, natural people. It truly is your color

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2007-06-06T10:39:00.000+08:00

was talking to jing jing yest....and we were saying that our weiqi section is a really united section...haha i totally agree lar...even jianyue came down to lanke to support though he probably didn't know the 2007 juniors well...haha WEIQI section is cool lar....anw we might be having a kbox section this sat...haha this is even cooler...and next wk we MIGHT be attending this weiqi camp organised by mervyn(ngee ann poly)....hahaha..

jingjing ~ natalie ~ jianhao ~ lianquan ~ sam ~ bush

i am proud of these juniors =D

2007-06-04T17:21:00.001+08:00

temp work is quite boring....the things that i can do are quite limited cos i am not a professional accountant/auditor, so most of the time i am actually BEGGING for work...haha feels so bu4 yao4 lian3, and frankly speaking, there aren't A LOT of things for accountants and auditors to do, cos there AREN'T that many small and medium companies in Singapore...but the good pay just makes pple want to continue with such jobs though both might not be the most meaningful jobs around....

ok i didn't get to go for the JUMP concert(mayday!!!!) cos my mum basically disapproves of such things.... RAHHH....where can i spend my money ON????

went to nj to get the grad cert and met a number of old faces....claire, dianyang, jane, chiiyeh, qianling and meihui...haha it's was nice to see them....
i even met the rowdy juniors, jianhao and sam(they were doing projects i think)...jiaohao asked me if i wanted to play badminton...haha i bet he's a pro lar...kept pestering the other juniors and seniors(jingjing and i) to play with him...anw yesterday was lanke cup and i went to support the juniors....jianhao played well....he was super zai and almost won 5 matches....and lianquan(he's actually a chi chess player) was also quite zai too...haha made me feel so diu1 lian3 cos weiqi is the chess that i play most often.... yet i suck so much at it...he won 4 matches too.....sam was not bad also....he's not a very experienced player but he still won 3 matches....haha so overall everyone was quite good....even though nj didnt win anything again....=(.....jingjing played too!!! the only j2 who played yep.....

it's raffles cup today...haha jiayou to yonghua,yida,lianquan,peirong(i dunno if she's playing but nvm), and all the other juniors whom i dun know(ok this is quite stupid)....hope c chess can clinch sth for the club...

ok...back to maple....

2007-05-13T19:06:00.001+08:00

http://artpad.art.com/gallery/?idx11d1j5t4c - artist unknown.

2007-05-07T14:26:00.000+08:00

If a fact is to be established by testimony, anonymous assertion is of no value; if it can be proved, by evidence to which the public have access, it is of no consequence (for the cause of truth) who produces it.
-Charles Babbage

DAMN HELL.

2007-05-06T18:08:00.000+08:00

boonsak ponsana ...male singles champion of aviva open 07!!!!

2007-05-02T13:24:00.000+08:00

went out with the SN pple to eat dinner at sakae yest...the udon was unsurprisingly salty...the sushi was normal...and all cost more than 60 bucks...bleah but since i am working now...i dun have to worry so much about money anymore...it's mine so i can spend as much as i like...btw i didn't go for the law interview...and zhu xuan was like "gosh! u skipped it?"...think she really wanted to read law... i hope she makes it into the law sch....haha but this adult who works at the same company as me told me that it's a fortunate thing not to take law...i wonder what he really meant.

2007-04-16T22:56:00.000+08:00

2007-04-13T22:18:00.000+08:00

come what may.

2007-04-12T21:23:00.000+08:00

do take at look at THIS. to read the words, pls go to view>>encoding>>chinese traditional(big 5).

2007-04-12T20:51:00.000+08:00

yesterday at work, i was trying to find the "0.01" , which supposedly caused the account balance and bank balance to differ by $0.01. To accountants, that seems like a SUPER important thing. yes, the "0.01". haha my whole afternoon was spent on searching the "0.01". how funny can working get...and i get paid much more than the "0.01".

Everything's got a moral, if only you can find it.

2007-04-10T19:33:00.000+08:00

2007-02-27T14:34:00.000+08:00

finally bought a new comp. anw it's vista...IT SUCKS!...a lot of stuff that used to be able to run on win xp cant run now...sigh...

2007-01-10T14:03:00.000+08:00

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Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Psychology and Sociology are both great minors to add to any major. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal.

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Biology/Chemistry/Geology

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Visual&PerformingArts

75%

Mathematics/Statistics

75%

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69%

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69%

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63%

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2007-01-08T21:34:00.000+08:00

oh well, i need a longer break than these 7 ++ months...maybe i should apply for uni(if i do get in) next year instead...there are just so many things waiting to be sorted out...

oh i need to say a big thank you to a few buddies who haf helped me pull thru my 2 years of jc life...u all know who u are...yea...THANKS BUDDIES!

2006-12-27T02:23:00.000+08:00

somehow, i have become addicted to making the same mistake over and over again. why?

anyway, i really want to go overseas. cant think of any better thing to do now.

2006-12-11T01:06:00.000+08:00

Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward. -Anonymous

2006-12-06T12:30:00.000+08:00

lunched with yr, ly and jane at swensens...then walked around orchard...sat at the rocky masters for quite long...then started talking a lot of crap and maybe some chim stuff..i left before dinner cos i had chess exam...it turned out to be rather ok...but i realised that i kept making "politically correct" moves...meaning that those moves would ensure that i survive, but they weren't the best moves made...i think the coach got quite bored playing with me...compared to playing with jingj, nat and ql....haha..

2006-12-06T12:28:00.000+08:00

Bonaro W. Overstreet:
Perhaps the most important thing we can undertake toward the reduction of fear is to make it easier for people to accept themselves, to like themselves.

2006-11-30T14:30:00.000+08:00

i got a shock of my life when someone told me that my gd friend was actually ... so all along my guess was correct. I didn't know why i was so disturbed by it ... so terrible that i didn't even felt like watching movie with the class after the chalet... and during weiqi lesson which happened to be on the same day, i almost lost to my junior. I got so frustrated that i started smsing liyan....

the thing is i can't exactly tell this to anyone...i think i will land her in deep trouble if i say more...in the first place, i shouldn't even have told part of my story to yanling, and together with another part experienced by yanling, everything became a complete picture. ARGH. and the complete pic is a super shocking one, something that i didn't want to believe from the start, yet now it's already a FACT. hell.

2006-11-17T03:13:00.000+08:00

bro: i wldn't be surprised if you do badly for As. you don't seem to be studying hard enough.

He's not quite wrong to say that.

2006-10-27T12:00:00.000+08:00

Emotions are naught to be tormented, for they can kill a person in more ways than one.
-David Garrison

I need a breather.

2006-10-23T10:39:00.000+08:00

argh. what a green day.

2006-10-12T17:51:00.000+08:00

Heard from natalie that the club's name is offically changed to strategic games club...yucks...i am seriously not for the idea of changing a club's name and adding games like MONOPOLY just because we need MORE members...i got a little angry talking about this ridiculous change with yida today....and now the T-shirt cannot be used. The badge that has not yet been made will become part of history too...call me petty or wad...but i just don't like this change.

2006-10-05T15:48:00.000+08:00

You Should Drive a Ferrari

Sleek and sexy, style has a lot of importance in your life. And you'll pay a lot to look good!

What Sports Car Should You Drive?

2006-10-05T12:39:00.000+08:00

my computer keeps restarting itself...so now i can't install any program...not even msn msger...

my gp grade's damn horrible...i don't feel like using english anymore =X

2006-10-03T17:15:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!

2006-10-02T19:49:00.000+08:00

teo the gpt is weird. she keeps "laughing".

i am super pissed now. not long ago, my mum said that she would sponsor me if i want to study in jap. today, she said, "cannot study in spore meh? isnt it the same?" wth. spore unis don't have the courses i want LOR. fine i will earn some money after As so that i can pay my spore uni fees(if i qualify for unis)...and i'll make a bank loan so that ur money will remain YOURS.... and then i will pay my bank loan + interest after i graduate. I WILL BE INDEPENDENT.

2006-10-01T20:36:00.000+08:00

my brother once told my mum...a person's character gets worse when he grows up(haha he's referring to himself i think)...but i think what he said doesn't just apply to him only..it applies to many people too...and maybe even me too! ...just that there aren't many people who are interested in judging my character...

oh...and when i told my brother that i wanted to go japan to study design...he said...why are you talking crap? yeah he thinks art is crap...and his opinions bothered me quite a lot...i don't want him to go around telling people that his sister is studying CRAP.

A levels. everyone's talking about it. I shall not make that the bulk of my words. =X

Life's getting really uninteresting these days. Maybe i am just too tired to even bother about what's happening around me. What i care about now is that bowl of kuay chap that never seems tasty enough...nonetheless it fills my stomach rather well so that i won't waste my time thinking about FOOD all the time.. i might consider selling kuay chap one day. then i can eat it whenever i want. =X ok i am not making much sense here. wadever.

2006-10-01T01:30:00.000+08:00

my brother is disgusting. he hasnt been brushing his teeth after dinner for two years!!!

2006-09-28T15:49:00.000+08:00

weird day.

2006-09-22T00:58:00.000+08:00

the people whom i want to be good friends with never end up to be my friends. often, i am too afraid to go up to them and talk with them because i am scared that they will be shunned off by this certain weirdness in me...... and when these people approach me, i become even more terrified...i dunno why...but i just can't seem to get close to these very special and nice people cos i have already constructed a fortress between us. sigh.

2006-09-22T00:13:00.000+08:00

there are some things which i am dying to clarify with the people around me...yet i dunno where to begin from...and if i start doing so out of nowhere, i might just get lost in this total mess and never get out of it again...

anyway, i was just thinking about this friend of mine...she has made me realise the very important things in life....she's one who doesn't really give a damn about family members or friends...often living in solitude i suppose...i think the way she treats her family members is weird......and i know that i can't really be her friend cos it seems like she doesn't want or need one...to her, i am basically just a mental support who would be there if her family members happen to fail her...haha and anyway i know too well that i am a very insecure person who cannot afford to lose a friend...XIN YING IS A VERY INSECURED PERSON...haha i guess it's just the way i am brought up...environment and everything...i started off as a super mischievous student, locking teachers in toilets at the age of 4 to getting slapped by idiotic english teachers(haha i think the teacher buei song me cos i got this cheena look and my english was super lousy then)...i still remembered i got sent home because this teacher claimed that i hadn't recovered from chicken pox....anw she was the same teacher who sent me out of class everyday cos she said i talked to much in class and was a nuisance to the students...i remembered standing outside the classroom everyday...and everytime the teacher wasn't looking...i would sneak around the other classrooms and start stealing water bottles...now come to think of it....i didn't knew why i did that...but i guess i was just trying to attract attention and make her put me back into class so that i wouldn't take pple's things again...and from then on i had this stupid habit of taking people's things and "misplacing" them somewhere........all the way until the age of 11.....haha ain't i bad compared to u??? and suddenly when i got into sec school...i became this weirdo who refused to talk much not bcause i was shy but because i simply refused to speak or comment....then i played NEOPETS all by myself in the sch lib until 6pm everyday cos i refused to go home...the lib auntie even recognised me after some time and thought i was a idotic student who played truant and got into SN by sheer luck....haha by the way, i am really different from what i was back in pri sec school....dunno why...haha...wonder who really changed me....but i am still an insecured person after all these years...sigh....must be those pri sch teachers lar....

2006-09-05T18:50:00.000+08:00

"World famous wildlife warrior Steve Irwin has died in a freak accident on the Great Barrier Reef, killed by a stingray barb which pierced his chest."

Ouch...

Had teeth scaling and polishing last sat...it was simply torturous...and blood couldn't stop flowing out from my top left gum when the dentist tried to remove those disgusting tar tar(is it the correct spelling?) which have been there for almost......two years???...

2006-08-30T16:26:00.000+08:00

I feel like a faulty car horn, unable to sound for help.

It's probably predictable that I wouldn't do well for any of the upcoming major exams cos i know my heart isn't there for it, and it wouldn't be for the rest of 2006.

2006-08-28T17:52:00.000+08:00

I often approach the wrong person for the wrong things. STUPID.

2006-08-22T21:49:00.000+08:00

I "koped" this....chess farewell pic....

2006-08-20T17:39:00.000+08:00

This reminds me of someone...

I know you
You were too short
You had bad skin
You couldn't talk to them very well
Words didn't seem to work
They lied when they came out of your mouth

You tried so hard to understand them
You wanted to be part of what was happening
You saw them having fun
And it seemed like such a mystery
Almost magic

Made you think that there was something wrong with you
You'd look in the mirror and try to find it
You thought that you were ugly
And that everyone was looking at you

So you learned to be invisible
To look down
To avoid conversation

The hours, days, weekends
Ah, the weekend nights alone
Where were you?
In the basement?
In the attic?
In your room?
Working some job-just to have something to do.
Just to have a place to put yourself
Just to have a way to get away from them
A chance to get away from the ones that made you feel
so strange and ill at ease inside yourself

Did you ever get invited to one of their parties?
You sat and wondered if you would go or not
For hours you imagined the scenarios that might transpire
They would laugh at you

They mistake kindliness for weakness
But you know the difference
You've been the brunt of their weakness for years
And strength is something you know a bit about because
you had to be strong to keep yourself alive

You know yourself very well now
And you don't trust people
You know them too well

You try to find that special person
Someone you can be with
Someone you can touch
Someone you can talk to
Someone you don't feel so strange around
And you find that they don't really exist
You feel closer to people on movie screens

Yeah, I think I know you
You spend a lot of time daydreaming
And people have made comment to that effect
Telling you that you're self involved, and self centered

But they don't know, do they?
About the long night shifts alone
About the years of keeping yourself company
All the nights you wrapped your arms around yourself
so you could imagine someone holding you
The hours of indecision, self doubt
The intense depression
The blinding hate
The rage that made you stagger
The devastation of rejection

Well, maybe they do know
But if they do, they sure do a good job of hiding it
It astounds you how they can be so smooth
How they seem to pass through life as if life itself
was some divine gift
And it infuriates you to watch yourself with your
apparent skill at finding every way possible to screw it up

If you would know what to do
If you'd have the right things on
If they would notice that you came from a different planet

Did you get all brave in your thoughts?
Like you going to be able to go in there and deal with it
and have a great time.
Did you think that you might be the life of the party?
That all these people were gonna talk to you and you
would find out that you were wrong?
That you had a lot of friends and you weren't so
strange after all?

Did you end up going?
Did they mess with you?
Did they single you out?
Did you find out that you were invited because they
thought you were so weird?

Yeah, I think I know you
You spent a lot of time full of hate
A hate that was pure sunshine
A hate that saw for miles
A hate that kept you up at night
A hate that filled your every waking moment
A hate that carries you for a long time

Yes, I think I know you
You couldn't figure out what they saw in the way they lived

Home was not home
Your room was home
A corner was home
The place they weren't, that was home

I know you

You're sensitive and you hide it because you fear
getting stepped on one more time
It seems that when you show a part of yourself that is
the least vulnerable someone takes advantage of you
One of them steps on you

For you life is a long trip
Terrifying and wonderful
Birds sing to you at night
The rain and the sun the changing seasons are true friends
Solitude is a hard won ally, faithful and patient

Yeah, I think i know you

HENRY ROLLINS -- I KNOW YOU

2006-08-10T11:23:00.000+08:00

Brain Lateralization Test Results

Right Brain (55.6%) The right hemisphere is the visual, figurative, artistic, and intuitive side of the brain.
Left Brain (44.4%) The left hemisphere is the logical, articulate, assertive, and practical side of the brain

Are You Right or Left Brained?(word pair test)
personality tests by similarminds.com

2006-08-04T19:19:00.000+08:00

me and my maplestory game.

2006-07-23T20:50:00.000+08:00

someone says: i am weird.
someone says: i am dull.
someone says: i am uncool.
someone says: i am stupid.
someone says: i have no friends.
she says: glad you know that.

2006-07-04T20:33:00.000+08:00

had a haircut today. almost fell asleep cos the hairdresser spent more than 1 hr trying to cut a simple hairstyle. but i must say he's one of the best hairdressers whom i have encountered so far. At least he doesnt have long fingernails that can accidentally scratch my face as my hair is being toyed. His own hair looks terrible though. Maybe he's the one who really needs a haircut. haha.

2006-07-03T22:55:00.000+08:00

world cup has become euro cup. germany, france, portugal, italy are in the top 4. bzzz..none of my good friends except mh and cj watch soccer. so sad :(

2006-06-25T20:37:00.000+08:00

every time i get back test results, many people, especially teachers, will ask why i did so badly...and the reasons i gave were just merely excuses that would probably make myself feel better...one good example would be: oh i think i was careless.....lol i should have just told them straight in their faces that i am not a good student.

gp and maths tmr. subjects that i should be able to pass with at least a decent 50. good luck to me.

2006-06-19T13:26:00.000+08:00

i often wonder why i am disturbed by matters that are very trivial...maybe i have a smaller brain threshold than normal people...

and yeah i indeed fell from heaven to hell can YOU stop emphasising that! i know i am lousy and u cant stop your sarcasm but pls show some respect because you don't know what may happen to you someday.

and opps i missed cindy's performance at esplanade...

2006-06-02T16:32:00.000+08:00

the bbq was quite a horrible experience because this certain species of insects were almost maddened by the smell of my blood. I suppose they were hoping to suck me dry...maybe they had been anticipating human beings for quite some time...why don't they just go to hospitals and drown themselves in the blood banks??

competition starts tmr. yet another round of embarrassment.

2006-05-12T19:26:00.000+08:00

bzzz...siew mooi wrote this in her blog: I can't stand ugly girls. -QL(It's QingLun)....haha so i guess it's quite true that guys DO care a lot about their gals' looks....

Went out with Jane, Ql and Ian today...visited the arty things at esplanade(ql calls this "the development of our right brains")...walked a while...and stoned a while...came across this very interesting shop...found this brokeback mountain poster which i like a lot( costs 10 bucks so i need to save up)....and a smaller version of it(that's 5 bucks)...and one which is postcard-sized...but the man said it came with the whole set of oscar-winning films postcards so i had to get the whole set if i wanted that brokeback mountain postcard...so sad..."LOVE IS A FORCE OF NATURE." --Brokeback Mountain

2006-05-04T22:58:00.000+08:00

ok. i see that i enjoy irritating people. PSsssssst....

2006-05-03T21:36:00.000+08:00

it's ONLY a birthday card.

2006-04-30T13:03:00.000+08:00

this is a bit too random...getting kidnapped isn't a bad thing if you think positively.

2006-04-30T12:57:00.000+08:00

Steamboat-ING is fun!!! haha but the sad thing is no J1s turned up...boo...how can the club survive in this manner...

2006-04-27T22:03:00.000+08:00

i realised sth recently. all the gals in my clique got A for FM and failed their GP. I failed FM and passed GP.i am so diff from them haha. anw i offically dropped FM. felt sad because now yuanz would be so alone in S04. at the same time, i am glad that i will not be stressed by my clique people anymore. haha so exciting....

didn't go for chess on wed...regretted cos the rest were having so much fun trying to thrash qinglun lar...haha in the end bush was the only one who trashed him!!! bush said he wants to thrash me too!!! oh no...

2006-04-21T00:22:00.000+08:00

ur character really sucks. i didn't know it until today. i think i was siao to think that you are a nice gal compared to some other people... in fact u are just hiding ur ugly real self, but it unknowingly surfaced today...i know i am not any better, but at least i don't try to act really nice in the first place and turn into a devil the next second...

and if you cant get a good grade for gp, don't assume that it's all ur teacher's fault and that he or she is too strict in his or her marking...if you are good, you are...if you are not, no matter how lenient your teacher is, you will still be a failure...so stop grumbling as though you are the only one who failed gp and dont keep comparing urself to those who have done relatively well...seriously lar...you have gotten grades that are way too excellent for the other subjects...i dont think u deserve them...because you really suck.

joke of the day: some weird guy stole a silver mirror from the chem lab today, though it was quite expected. wait till that mirror explodes...and burn more of his hair...

2006-04-06T00:14:00.000+08:00

god. my results are horrible and there's nth i can do...

2006-03-30T22:14:00.000+08:00

i don't know who's "xin ying". i am beginning to wonder if i really like art. i think i can actually not know how to draw by just psychoing myself and say, "i cant draw. i never knew how to draw." i can also say, "oh i am just a left hander. i am pretending to be ambidextrous." I can even comment that i dunno anything except eating and sleeping. that's why i have an iq of 50. ok this is getting stupid and i dunno why am i thinking about all these.

2006-03-27T12:43:00.000+08:00

went IMH to help out with mural painting last saturday. it was quite an experience. never really painted a proper drawing on a wall before until yesterday. haha so cool..but the adults whom i was hanging around with while painting seemed rather scary...i have no idea how to describe THAT feeling which i sorta developed when i first saw them...it's weird anyway...and i was subconsciously acting cautious around them...hmm the adult world just isn't going to be that simple...god i can imagine myself turning 21 in three years' time...maybe i will become one scary weirdo too... but then again...maybe i won't even know that i have become one...
e-filing for people was a total disaster. i thought i made a deadly mistake by declaring two persons' total income negative!!! omg i hope IRAS won't sue me...

2006-03-20T23:07:00.000+08:00

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

Michelle is your soulmate.

You truly love Me.

You consider Yuanz your true friend.

You know that Siew Mooi is always thinking of you.

You'll remember Yan Ling for the rest of your life.

You secretly think Zhi Hui is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.

You secretly think that Min Li is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.

You secretly think that Bro is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Bro changes lovers faster than underwear.

You secretly think Shu Hui is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Shu Hui has a hidden internet romance.

2006-03-17T17:07:00.000+08:00

haha. new template. ok i shouldn't be here. off to study chem equilibrium! so i can become more balanced SOMEHOW.

2006-03-16T18:04:00.000+08:00

lousy comp. it got a virus immediately after a long recovery process. am i still supposed to do another recovery AGAIN? god.

2006-03-13T17:05:00.000+08:00

watched hcjc's "huang cheng" yesterday with my SN friends...there was something interesting about the third play...it was portrayed by a chinese chess board......what's so great about winning and what's so bad about losing?...just like the jiang4 shi4 and yuan2 shuai4(the two v impt chess pieces in chi chess in case u dunno)....no matter who wins, both of them will still be dumped back into the old chess box...until then....

2006-02-16T21:33:00.000+08:00

i am a lousy child. I never did anything that made my parents proud except getting into NJ which my dumb relatives think is good...i even made my mum wash my stinko pe shirt cos i was too tired to do so and just left it hanging in the toilet...she kan4 bu4 shuang3 then helped me wash it...lol...i am a lousy student too...i couldnt even finish my fm paper...some smarties out there wld probably get FULL marks lar...and i would get a single digit as usual...i don't even remember passing a FM test lar...chemistry also...the only subjects which i ever passed in NJC are physics and and c maths...how pathetic can this get...i think i am just stupid and i have a lousy memory...i cant even rmb small things like blowing the candle in the bathroom after use...i gonna burn my own house one day....btw my bathroom light is faulty...so we have to use a candle cos no one bothers to change it...but i dun need light in the bathroom anyway cos i am nvr scared of the dark...the only prob is that i have poor night vision..lol

2006-02-13T23:31:00.000+08:00

should i be glad that i finished 2.4 in 15mins 35s (lousiest timing ever in my whole life) cos i will have lotsa room for improvement next week? lol...

i need to do some solid work. i want to get Bs for common tests...though i feel it's highly impossible...i am not very witty...

i think my gp will never improve unless mr leong teaches me...he's a great teacher in my opinion...a lot of people don't really like him though...

2006-02-08T20:58:00.000+08:00

haha life hasn't been great these days...and i was complaining to shuhui this afternoon how terrible some people are...ok i know i am not very good either...but they really suck...i am not happy in nj.

2006-01-29T17:49:00.000+08:00

i got a new hard drive and it's foc...haha

2006-01-11T22:11:00.000+08:00

my highly intelligent brother somehow saved the comp by ending dunno wadever process...wow...

cca fair was quite a success today(I THINK)...quite a few signed up for CNB...haha we should have an orientation...hmm do all sorts of interesting things in CNB so that we can keep these people if possible...oh and quite a lot of gals signed up too!!!(HAHA MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE OF THAT PERSON)...haha...i think vulgarities should be banned in CNB...the guys are using them far too frequently...siew mooi and i just don't like it...maybe they should come up with some fining system to stop these people from sprouting so much rubbish...and for god's sake vulgarities don't make you sound more manly...i think they just spoil the whole image of CNB...

anyway we discussed abt a rather interesting subj during gp today...it's about gender and sex...and that reminds me of a few of my friends who want to be males although they are supposed to be females and some wantto be females when they are supposedly males...lol

2006-01-10T11:57:00.000+08:00

wow. suicide run got its name because it's SUICIDAL...ok wadever....now i am on a very important mission....SAVE MY COMP OHHZZZZ....

2006-01-07T23:22:00.000+08:00

i really can't help it if u keep thinking that weiqi section is lousy. why don't you try to help then?

2006-01-06T16:28:00.000+08:00

GREAT. they are indeed a bunch of disgusting and insenstive people.